Well, I've been in Seminary for 6 months now. I look back and I can't believe that it's been that long, yet other times I feel like I have been reading these utterly confusing theological books for half of my life. I've struggled with so many things along my journey this far... health issues - negotiating time between God, family, school, church, life - keeping my enthusiasm for what I am learning "in check" and trying not to push new thoughts on others - realizing that I can't be everything to everyone... and all the while having that nagging feeling in the back of my mind that I'm not qualified to pursue this calling.
I have discovered when you are in Seminary, you become your own biggest critic. As a result, I have found myself asking people to become my accountability partners. It's been difficult to hear some things that have been revealed to me through them (I'm only human), but when I reflect back on the situations that were discussed, I do see where I have room to grow in those areas. I need to know what I can change to become the best minister I personally can be, and I'm glad that God has placed mentors in my path that are able to openly share with me where they see room for improvement.
I am so blessed to have the support that I have had during the discernment of my calling. I have the most wonderful family and friends that I could ever hope for. I know that I have made huge mistakes in the past, and it is comforting to know that, not only God, but those close to me have forgiven me for those mistakes. I know that I can count on so many of you for continued support during the next year and a half of my journey. Thank you!
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