Yesterday, I went to Newsong Music Festival with several thousand other people. Newsong is an opportunity for Christians, mostly youth, to get together, listen to inspiring music, hear wonderful testimonies and really enjoy each other’s company. I truly had a wonderful time!
At one time I would have made a million excuses NOT to go to an event like this. I would have been uncomfortable being with so many other people – having to put on my “oh, I’m so happy” face while I felt like I was dying inside. Sometimes even going out to dinner with friends was/is too overwhelming to even consider!
How did/do I manage to get the strength to move forward during those times? Sometimes I asked God for the strength. Sometimes I pushed myself for my family…. And other times I didn’t find the strength at all. I realize now I missed a lot of wonderful opportunities during my life because of my depression but I also realize no matter what - I couldn’t force myself to change those circumstances at those times. I did the best I could. I continue to do the best I can everyday in every situation.
There may come a time in the future when I’ll miss another wonderful opportunity for an unforgettable family memory or a once in a lifetime event with friends. But if I know in my heart, I’m doing the best I can do in this world – I’m okay with that. God has blessed me with a lot more “better” times than not and I try to cherish all the opportunities He gives me!
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