DOWN IS NOT DEFEATED!

The cracks in the sidewalk are just reminders that you can fall apart no matter how strong you are. – Author Unknown

I’ve been “down” today. But when I look back from where I’ve come, I realize:
DOWN IS NOT DEFEATED!

I wrote this poem right before I was admitted into a psychiatric hospital in 1999… At that time I was diagnosed Bi Polar and was started on medication for mood stabilization. I believe that period was God’s answer to my cries in this poem.

When You look into my eyes, who do You see?
If You look past the confusion deep enough You would see me
You’d see that I am funny, I am lonely, I am sad
You’d see that I am loving but self centered, sometimes bad
You’d see that I am frightened not sure just what to do
You’d see that I am strong but still in need of You
When You look into my eyes what do You see?
Do You see the anger harboring consuming most of me?
Do You see that I am fragile just barely hanging on?
Do You see that I’m a loser even when I’ve won?
Do You see that I’m reflective of what I want to be?
Do You see that I’m not happy when I look at me?
I’m asking now look at me deep inside my heart
And far beyond you will find the most hurtful part
Remove that part and make me whole as only You can do
So when someone looks at me what they see is You.